Self-Blame

Last season our team was 11-2 in the regular season. We had the best defense in the league and we were sure that we could win a championship. Our first game of the tournament was against a team that beat our rivals by 13 points. We knew it would be hard to beat them but we thought we could. When we went onto the court, we tried our best but our shots were off. Long story short... we lost by 1 point. After the game I was blaming everyone on the team. Our shooting guard wasn't scoring points. Our center had butter fingers the whole game and couldn't grab a rebound. Our coach called a time out when we had an open lay-up. In fact the only players on our team that i wasn't blaming was the people that sat on the bench the whole game, and myself. A few days later i found a video about Chris Paul. His firsts words on the video were "When going into a locker room after a loss, the first thing I think about is What could i have done better." Now, I hadn't known much about Chris Paul then because i had never seen the Hornets play. That night, the Hornets were playing the Cavaliers so i decided to watch. I immediately noticed how much harder Chris Paul was working than everyone in the gym. Even when he was on the bench he was cheering on his team. The next day something told me to watch the video again. I watched it and then it hit me. I had always blamed everyone except myself. That night I made a list of what I could have done better to make our team win instead of what the others could have done better. I let my man score five points on me. I missed a wide open shot. Many things that i could have done, i didn't. Now every time after a loss, I always think about what i could have done better instead of what could my team have done better.